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starbucks [
March 9, 2009]
Jenny and I went to starbucks this afternoon. There were strange men that decided it was okay to comment on my PERSONAL conversation I was having with JENNY. NOT STRANGE ASIAN MAN AND HIS DOG AND CRONIES.
I'm tired of thinking about him. I wish it all just went away. Its not fair having to love someone when you're not with them anymore. As I'm saying all of this, I know that if life was easy, it wouldn't be worth it. Sometimes I just want to give up on everything. Like, can't I just go and party and have fun for a while. I want to know when I'm going to feel like everything I do has been for something, and that I've actually made it and I deserve a small break.
I'm slacking in one of my classes. but only one. Its my stupid human anatomy class. it makes me want to kill myself, not because its hard, but because its online and nothing makes any fucking sense. I'm going to take the first exam in a few minutes. hopefully I pass and don't get dropped from the class!
my little sister just got hired at my place of work. shes going to be a host.

and we were (1) dreaming

journal [
December 10, 2008]
I believe the healthcare system is lacking in bedside manner to name one. My best friend was in the hospital recently and her doctor had no bedside manner and was abrupt and harsh and rude to her. He managed to make her feel even more scared and apprehensive about the upcoming serious procedure. He was the worst thing ( in her mind) of her entire hospital experience. I think some of that may be doctors choosing to emulate Dr. House from the television show.
I think that the healthcare system can learn from a lot of natural medicine used by other countries. There are a lot of perfectly safe procedures that could be put to great use from other cultures. Take acupuncture, its been used in China for years, and they even use it during some surgeries there. I think a more holistic approach could be beneficial to Americans.
and we were (0) dreaming

December 10, 2008]
One way that multiculturalism is brought into my college courses is by one of my teachers. She is foreign and is teaching the hardest class I am taking. Her accent makes it very hard for me to understand her and I often have to ask her to repeat herself. She uses phrases that make it sound like she doesnt know what she is talking about. What I would change is to have taken the class with a different teacher. I've had such a terrible time in the class ingeneral, along with not understanding. That is one of the ways that multiculturalism is brought into my college courses.
and we were (0) dreaming

November 6, 2008]
Journal 5

I would say that my online persona is definitely Facebook.  I use it nearly daily and I love it. Almost all of my friends are on facebook and I can see what they're up to, you can invite people to groups or events, and even chat the way you can on AIM.
I generally use correct capitalization  and what I perceive to be correct emoticons.  So, now I wonder how other people take the things I write. Not just in emails, but in all written or typed things.

When I think about what the guy wrote about Facebook and Myspace, I couldn't believe how accurate I thought it was. I suppose you could say that they were things I was thinking but never thought out loud. I even see my little sister, who is 15, making the slow switch to Facebook from Myspace. I guess that is just our "class".

and we were (1) dreaming

November 6, 2008]
JOurnal four:

I suppose I identify myself with the things I do, and the people I surround myself with. In highschool I was a cheerleader and therefore identified with people like me. Now, I identify not so much with the random people I come into contact with in life, but the ones that more or less shape me.  I relate to people who are understanding, and open. People who laugh at themselves and yet take life seriously. I identify with people that are comforting to me, and that I don't have to pretend with.

I suppose these Identities were shaped because it was what felt comfortable to me. what felt safe and inviting. I see it even now, I'm a creature of habit, and I enjoy my comforts.
and we were (0) dreaming

journal [
November 5, 2008]
I plan on going into the healthcare field, I plan on being a respiratory therapist. I think that I should probably be aware of different cultures greeting methods, or the way they talk to someone in a position of power. I should probably know how I should greet them back, and ways not to offend someone in a culture that I do not understand.
In the Dominican Republic, where my family owns a house, I have found out that you can not kick a person out of a place that they are living, even if they stop paying rent. In the US that would just not fly! There is no way that we would continue to function as a thriving culture if we allowed such practices. I don't understand the reasoning behind it, but I don't see why anyone would pay to live anywhere if they we'rent going to be removed if they didn't pay.
and we were (0) dreaming

journal [
October 1, 2008]
If I found out that I was going to have to live with one of these people, It would be quite an experience. The first person I interviewed was Atheist and since I'm not overly religious ( in fact I don't practice at all, I would say that instead of religion I have faith) I don't think that I would change much if anything about my life. I found that his life was so much like my own but that he just doesn't celebrate religious holidays they way I do. He attends his family functions and loves his family as much as I love my own, he just doesn't believe in any sort of after life or reason for being here. While that makes me sad, it doesn't really effect my life.
and we were (0) dreaming

journal [
October 1, 2008]
I read the article on Dealing with Homosexuality in a Homophobic Culture A Self Organizing Approach.
The concept that I got from the article that I liked was talking about how in Lesbian communities, validating self-esteem is a huge part. I found that I completely agree with the ideas behind that. I think that in all sexually orientated groups that would be a great way to give people more confidence and pride in themselves and in their relationships.
I think within the whole article they're discussing communicating relationships, and being able to openly communicate feelings and emotions. I believe that in many cultures there is the fear of the social stigma that comes along with "coming out''. I also think that miscommunications could stem from not understanding or being comfortable with homosexual people.
and we were (0) dreaming

this is [
December 3, 2007]
[ mood | cold ]

my first post in ovee 109 weeks. I still have nothing to say. <3

i'll talk about my weekend maybe... I spent it with my boyfriend and his family. He had his college soccer banquet, and afterwards we all proceeded to get shitty. 

Seth comes home for the weekend on friday. His parents are having a christmas party and I'm really excited for it. I want to get new clothes, but there is nothing new about that. I have bought new clothes in months. actually... i bough a shirt for $12 in sept. thats it. thats the last time i've purchased new clothes. fuck. thats awful. I go to the mall a lot however. hahaha.


oh well. i'm going back to Northern Va today... just for a day or so. ugh.

and we were (0) dreaming

October 10, 2005]
If you read this,
even if we do not speak often,
comment with one memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
good or bad.
Just as long as it happened.
Then post this on your livejournal.
See what other people remember about you...
and we were (7) dreaming

March 16, 2005]
some times i wish there were other dementions i could go to.. you know, so i could take a break. places where it is always warm and exciting and happy. places wherer there is no trouble and everyone has frozen drinks all day long, with those little umbrellas and fruit on a stick. we could all be happy and tan and so alive.

reminder : call tumble person
and we were (4) dreaming

February 15, 2005]
I Love The 90's...
You Know You're a 90's Kid When........ (X The Ones That Match You)
(X) 1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"
(x) 2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
(x) 3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel-Air."
(x) 4. You wore biker shorts under your shirts and felt stylish.
(x) 5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own.
(x) 6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
(x) 7. You know that "WOAH!" comes from Joey on "Blossom."
(x) 8. Two words: M.C. Hammer.
(x) 9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
(x) 10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
(x) 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."
(x) 12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
(x) 13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
(x) 14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
(x) 15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail Day in computer class at school.
(X) 16. You played the game M.A.S.H. (Mansion Apartment Shack House).
(_) 17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it.
(x) 18. L.A. Gear
(_) 19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
(x) 20. You remember reading Tales of a Fourth Grade Nothing and all the Ramona books.
(x) 21. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."
(_) 22. You wanted to be a Goonie. Truffle Shuffle! Boodie Trap!...
(x) 23. You even wore flourescent clothing.
(x) 24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
(x) 25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
(x) 26. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
(x) 27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
(x) 28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.
(x) 29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts.
(x) 30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
(_) 31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
(x) 32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
(x) 33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals.
(x) 34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
(x) 35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
(x) 36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
(x) 37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide.
(x) 38. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
(x) 39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
(x) 40. You've gone through this list occasionally saying "awesome."
(x) 41. You remember Popples.
(x) 42. "Don't worry, be happy."
(_) 43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights.
(x) 44. You wore socks scrunched down.
(x) 45. "Miss Mary MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK, with silver BUTTONS, BUTTONS, BUTTONS all down her BACK, BACK, BACK!"
(x) 46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
(x) 47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
(x) 48. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
(x) 49. You remember watching "Rainbow Brite" and "My Little Ponies."
(x) 50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
(x) 51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac
(x) 52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
(x) 53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on Saved By the Bell.
(_) 54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi.
(x) 55. You played and or collected Pogs.
(x) 56. You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger
and we were (0) dreaming

November 3, 2004]
im getting that feeling. it hurts. and i dont want to try. i just want to fall fall fall apart. and i dont know what it is... i know i dont have a bad life. i know for the most part, im even maybe spoiled. i even have a magnificent boyfriend.. but im soo unhappy. im so in that bad place. i dont know how to run. and i want to i want to run for my life. and thats what it is. im running for my sanity. right now i dont know what i would do with out jenny or bretti think i would probably die. jenny is so nice, she is one of the best people to just exsist with. i love the random laughing moments spent in her room after a fabulous shopping spree. or brett, my beautiful lover. he is amazing, wonderful, everything my heart desires. i need him. i love the moments spent hidden beneath the folds of his blankets and sheets, the sweet wispering in the small small hours of the morning..i cant be here without either of them. im still going crazy. its saddening.... im still soo not really here...im somewhere else
and we were (1) dreaming

September 14, 2004]

Are you one of the 3 P`s? (Poser, Punk, Prep)
What do they call you?
When is your cake-day?
What color are you feelin`?
What grade you reppin`?
What`s your favorite song?
You are a ViRGiN =) TRUE
You are in l0ve <3 FALSE
You are: YOURSELF! - Yes, you are N0T one of the 3 P`s. GO Y0U! You have your own style and personality that is impossible to label! There is not one word that can describe you. All there is to say is...NEVER CHANGE.
You are a true: Player...enough said =D
You like: Shopping - W0w you are a SH0P-0-H0LiC! Stay cool, and don`t spend all the money on your mama`s plastic =D
One of your go0d qualities is: that your Caring - Your a very caring person, you care about others around you and people realize that. Stay the way you are.
This quiz by lil_mmm - Taken 22383 Times.
New - Dating Advice written by YOU!

and we were (1) dreaming

September 12, 2004]
Im cleaning out again!
if you wanna stay on my friends list just comment...
nothing long, just a smilie or something!
<3 me!
and we were (11) dreaming

August 27, 2004]
Take 3 minutes and try this...it will
freak you out! The person who sent it to me said
her wish came true 10 minutes after they read
mail. BUT NO CHEATING! This game has a
funny/spooky outcome.

Don't read ahead...just do it in order! It takes
about three minutes...it's worth a try :)

First..get a pen and paper. When you actually
choose names, make sure it's people you actually
know and go with your first instinct.

Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read
ahead or you'll ruin it!

1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a

2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any
two numbers you want.

3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down
members of the opposite sex that you know.


4. Write anyone's name (like friends or
family....) in the 4th, 5th,

and 6th spots.

5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11.


6. Finally, make a wish.

And now the key for the game.....

1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people
about this game.

2. The person in space 3 is the one that you

3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't
work out.

4. You care most about the person you put in 4.

5. The person you name in number 5 is the one
who knows you very well.

6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star.

7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with
the person in number 3.

8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7

9. The tenth space is the song that tells you
most about YOUR mind.

10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel
about life

NOW...post this bulletin (dont reply) within the
hour... IF you do..
your wish will come true...
If you don't it will become the opposite."
and we were (0) dreaming

jenny- there are issues with my computer.. i couldnt reply directly.. [
August 27, 2004]
im sorry i havent called you.
i didnt think it would be right for me to call andexpect forgiveness while you were on vacation having fun... i hope you forgive me.
he is not the only thing that matters to me. we are just not doing very well at this moment. you matter a lot to me jennifer marie. please please please understand that. im sorry. please forgive me.
and we were (1) dreaming

August 27, 2004]
should i feel second best to the most important person in my life? should i feel like im wasting my time, waiting...?
and we were (0) dreaming

July 19, 2004]
[ mood | anxious ]

well, the summers half over... and yet i feel like it hasnt even quite begun...

im so excited for the beach, i know brett and i are going to have the best time.. esp. since corey and brittany are going to come down. i missed britt while she was in hawaii...:(

why is it that ive graduated, yet im still all involved in the drama where people talk shit about me? whatever.. people like that dont matter.

and we were (4) dreaming

May 24, 2004]
[name:] brittany
[sign:] libra
[sexual orientation:] oh boy oh boy oh boy.
[how long since last serious relationship:] this one right now..:)
[# of relationships longer than 3 months:] 2 or three
[# of relationships shorter than 2 months:] haha.. like all of them in middle school
[longest relationship how many months:] 6 months
[ever lived with a girlfriend/boyfriend (how many):] no
[ever done the long distance thing:] yeah...
[do you have faith in long distance relationships:] of course, its all about sacrifices.
[on dates do you pay or get paid for:] get paid for - which sometimes i don't like
[ever been on a blind date:] kinda.. a friend has brought someone along for me..
[ever dated more than one person at a time:] haha yeah, 8th grade.. damn.
[do you call or get called:] i get called.. but yet i call...
[ever have "friends with benefits":] sorta
[ever cheated:] once
[ever had your heart broken:] yes
[ever been dumped:] yeah..
[do you put out the first night:] yikes.. no.
[number of people slept with:] well.. i nap with brett all the time ;)
[do you kiss on the first date:] not usually.
[what kind of person gets your number:] no one gets my number, shoot...
[what attracts you to a person:] the way the carry themself, and the way the act around me. it helps if they give me chills everytime we touch, and i think that everything about them is beautiful.<3
[physical traits you turn your head for:] hmm. i like blue eyes, but i find lots of things attractive it depends on the person.
[ever been in love:] yep
[say I love you even though you didn't mean it:] no
[have any bitter ex's:] haha, yeah...
[bitter towards any ex's:] nope, im not missing out on anything they can give me.
[oldest person you've dated:] 19
[youngest person you've dated:] when i was 11 i dated an 11 year old.. its was hot:) lol
[average age you get involved with:] a little bit older than me, for the maturity factor.
[have relationships changed you:] yeah, they've helped me see who i am, and grow up, one of them has made me a better person.
[have your relationships been worthwhile:] i suppose.
[where do you normally meet people for dating or relationships:] through friends, and school
[what defines a girlfriend/boyfriend :] ... when they tell you that they are your boyfriend? i dont know
[would you ever get married:] yeah!
[key to a successful relationship:] more than i can put here... communication, consideration, love.. just to name a few
[best attribute you bring to a relationship:] my affection, and quirky personality...?:)
[worst attribute you bring to a relationship:] im scared of being hurt, im afraid to give too much...
[importance of relationships in your life:] brett... the most important one in the world.. im lost without him.

Wallet? tan..
Hairbrush? i have like.. four
Toothbrush? blue! and white
Jewelry worn daily? tiffanys ring and bracelet from brett
Pillow cover? uhm... yellow, pink, flowers, white, and pink!
Blanket? yellow with white flowers, and the other side is white with yellow flowers
Coffee cup? the one with SNOWMEN!
Sunglasses? brown ones.
Underwear? i like these blue victorias secret ones
Favorite shirt? bretts shirt
Cologne/Perfume? ralph lauren- romance
CD in stereo right now? uhm.. a mix
Tattoos? none
Piercings? 1 in my ears
What you are wearing now? tan shorts and a black tank top
In my mouth? my tongue?
In my head? I miss mayyyyberry, sitting on the porch drinking...
Wishing? brett was here, things were different, and it wasnt all so hard
After this? waiting for brettt
If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? this boy... coz hes an asshole, and i dont want him around next year
Person you wish you could see right now? BREEETTTTTT
Is next to you? a basket
Some of your favorite movies? princess bride, joe dirt, pirates of the carribean
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month? graduation, beach week, no school, being tan
The last thing you ate? heath bar
Something that you are deathly afraid of? being left
Do you like candles? i loveLOVElove them <3
Do you like incense? not really
Do you like the taste of blood? its not yummy
Do you believe in love? yeah.. and its pretty
Do you believe in soul mates? yes
Do you believe in love at first sight? no.. not really
Do you believe in Heaven? sometimes
Do you believe in God? sometimes
What do you want done with your body when you die? i dont know
What is the latest you've ever stayed up? all night doing projects and stuff. and when i was little with friends. i can't do that shit anymore..
Can you eat with chopsticks? yeah.. im asian lol
What's your favorite coin? quarters
What are some of your favorite candies? junior mints
What's something that you wish people would understand? that everyone is different
What's something you wish you could understand better? my parents
Who is someone that you really wish was still around? .....

Kissed someone: of course <3
Killed someone: ugh no?
Been raped: ....no
Smoked: yes
Gotten Drunk: hahah my god yes
Worn rainbow: when i was 4
Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yes
Left the country: dominican republic
Had a party with over 30 people: not here.
Taken nude pictures: yeah
Stolen something: nope
Caught something on fire: yeahhh
Wanted to cheat on someone: .......
Asked someone out: no
Dumped someone: yes
Had a dream, then the next day it happens: kinda

You Touched: katie
You Talked to in person: mom
You hugged/kissed: brett
Had sex with: brett
You Instant messaged: doug
Who broke your heart: me

!!_ARE YOU_!!
Understanding: yes
Insecure: yes
Interesting: yeah
Smart: yes
Moody: yes
Difficult: yes
Attractive: sometimes
Bore Easily: my god yes
Controlling: sometimes
Sad: sometimes
Happy: with brett
Trusting: i hope
Talkative: when im around people i like
Ignored: no
Reliable: yes
Lonely: not lately

and we were (0) dreaming

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